This morning as I made my way down the coastal trail on my walk, I was stopped by a man. He was on a bike pulling what looked to be a covered wagon, going in the opposite direction. He commented about my sweater, saying it was purple the color of royalty. What followed blew my mind. He told me I was a messenger of healing. He continued telling me that I was a powerful energy and that I was helping others heal. He said he had never known love, never told a woman he loved her. He then said he hoped that I had married and had children. I told him that I had but my husband had died and was healing myself. He told me I was lucky to have loved and that he was healing from never having love. I told him thank you for saying that and he said he was just a conduit for my message. He said I was healing energy, God bless me and he headed the other way.
It stopped me in my tracks.....what a way to start the day.
This week I have been having what I would call signs and messages. I have always had a sensitivity towards intuition and premonition. Phil and I have had many discussions about what happened after death and what we believed. When he was very ill Noelle and I asked him to please give us signs that he was okay after he passed. We often kidded Phil that he was like Forest Gump because he often had feathers that floated around him. This week started with a feather floating around me as I walked, it just floated around my head and around me until it landed on my shoe. As if that wasn't enough, on the way home I had another float by me as I drove, it floated around the windshield before it landed on the window in front of me. Today when I was walking I got drawn into the tidal pools. I was taking an image of a sea shell and I raised my head and on the rock next to me was a toy fire engine. I was tucked back in the rocks where the tide has just receded from, it was very early in the morning. Surprising that a toy could make it through the tides we have had overnight. But there it sat, I left it there, but it made me smile as Phil being a fireman and he kept toy firetrucks himself. I keep a couple of them on my nightstand, they people had given him when he was sick. Messages? I'm positive that Phil is letting me know he is okay. I have been seeing hearts everywhere, in clouds, in waves and on trees. I find it reassuring and it fills me with a filling of peace.
My walk started by Asilomar, including the beach, coastal trail and back into the neighborhoods on my way back. I was tired today, probably because my walk yesterday was very long. The waves were pretty and I had a good time watching them break on the rocks.
Birds, sea shells and trees grabbed my attention.
Right before Phil passed away, there was a crow who began to sit on the shed behind the house and would watch us through the kitchen window. Noelle and I often would look at each other with dread as we felt that might have been a sign that Phil was leaving. After he passed the crow came around for a couple of weeks and then we never saw it again.
As I have been walking I have been noticing this crow with one leg, I have taken images a couple of times. It was there right after I found the firetruck. Life is amazing and I would encourage you to watch for the messages around you.
One more story that takes my breath away. As Phil died, I stood beside him the entire time. I talked to him telling him that it was okay for him to leave that I would be alright. I told him I loved him and how much he meant to me. It was not an easy death and I stood beside him for several hours. I became weak, I told him I needed to sit down for just a minute. The second I sat down he passed away, drawing his final breath. When I stood up a dime fell from my lap, that really surprised me as there was no reason for there to be a dime there. I had not been anywhere that I would need money in some time. I had sat on the bed where I had been sleeping and was only there for a moment. After that Noelle and I would find dimes everywhere. I was not aware of this being a phenomenon, but after looking it up, I saw that other people had said that it had happened to them as a loved one died. Life is mysterious and wonderful, I can feel Phil in my heart at times, I know he is there and that helps me go forward. I believe that we will be together again.
On the way home, I noticed flowers, birds and I spotted a bunny.
As the sun set, I ran out to catch a couple of images. An end to a wonderful day, reaffirming beliefs and finding peace within.
