It was rainy today and my mood was gray. I have found myself being a combination sad, happy that 365 days is over. I got up and out early, it was drizzling. I hopped into the car looking for a place to take images that might not include cleaning my lens. When I got to the harbor it was clear skies and I could see a little bit of light. Even a brief bit of color....but as I was walking the skies broke loose and by the time I got back to the car, I was soaked. Back home, cold and wet.
I ate breakfast, dried off and headed back out again. I stopped at Lover's point, again it was dry until I started taking photos, drenched again.
Back home, feeling defeated, I started doing some things I needed to take care of around the house. Then I saw a peak of light.....Once more I headed out, this time to Asilomar and I lucked out it was low tide. Now that is good therapy!
A rainbow! Which took me back to a time when Phil had been through a very difficult time. We took a drive and there were rainbows everywhere. When we got to Asilomar, Phil found a painted rock with a laughing face.....he just sat down and cried. Rainbows have always been special to me and now even more so. A sign from the heavens!
I have been a mess today. Emotional, missing you and I had a flashback today. The first one in a very long time. Being in nature and my walks are helping and of course I will continue doing so. I thought of all the times as you were on your journey that we encountered rainbows and magic. I talked to you today, telling you that I needed you....when I got into the car, the Star Wars theme was on the radio. I broke down had a good cry and remembered coming out of the movie and me yelling peeeeewwww peeeeeeeew shooting you with my invisible laser. Now that was a sign. Tomorrow will be a better day.
