365 days of images - - Day 337- Dec 5, 2021 - Linda's Intuitive Images LMH -- Conundrum in Carmel

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I guess I woke up on what is referred to as the wrong side of the bed.  Every once in a while I wake up in a funk, I miss Phil and today I even had a bit of a pity party.  Feeling sorry for myself is unusual because what I usually feel is this horrible sorrow about what Phil had to go through as he progressed through the stages with astrocytoma.  Today however it was a depression that got me.   A creative block seemed to be the result, then I saw the message....Conundrum.  Now what to do?  .

I started at Carmel River State Beach.

I head through the neighborhoods toward town, I've been loving the holiday decorations and it looked festive downtown.  As I'm walking I hear an operatic sound, a music resounding but I don't see anyone singing.  Finally the voice becomes clear and I hear,

"Smile though your heart is aching

Smile even though it's breaking

When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by

If you smile through your fear and sorrow

Smile and maybe tomorrow

You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness

Hide every trace of sadness

Although a tear may be ever so near

That's the time you must keep on trying

Smile, what's the use of crying?

You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you just smile"

Soon I see a man walking toward me and he was singing.   Everyone enjoying his voice.  I told him it was beautiful.  It was a message and changed my flow....

Flowers, messages and fairy houses followed.

The festive side.

A pug with its own car!!!!

Carmel is magical...... Back to the beach on the way to the car.

For Phil

I'm trying to make sure I say thank you to everyone as the end of 365 days of images comes near.   You expressed you wanted to say thank you, I'm doing my best to do that for you.  Today I thought of Patti sending you all of those t-shirts as you went through chemo and radiation and Mom sending you a card almost every single day for 4 years.  Your smiles said it all.  I miss those smiles most of all.

To Patti and Mom, I love and thank you from both of us.  Phil adored that you took the time to always make sure that he was having smiles during his journey. 

Patti you are amazing, I know you are working hard to make Mom comfy and happy.  Big hugs and love.  I will see you both soon.

Thank you to my family who all stepped in to help when things were really got tough.

365 days of images - - Day 302- Oct. 31, 2021 - Linda's Intuitive Images LMH -- October Without You

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October has always been a special month to Phil and I, our anniversary, we loved to travel and enjoyed the fall.  All the memories and love are surrounding me.  Each image is dedicated to him and in a way  I feel I can still communicate what I'm feeling.   Life isn't the same without him but I'm still finding beauty, joy and happiness.

Orange tints this morning

Phil could spot an egret from a mile away. Ha! He really had a knack for it.

I couldn't help myself.

The waves of grief still come, but I'm learning to ride them to the other side.

Roses and petals floating in the sea.

Stellar jay and it's beautiful feathers.

I visited our local laundry today to check out the Halloween decorations.

Cyber Sudz

  I lost my engagement ring in a dryer there when Phil was first diagnosed with cancer.  I was beside myself.  When I went in to ask if someone found it, a man stepped up and said he had found it.  I cried for a couple of days...sheer gratitude.  A helpful friendly staff makes the laundry experience a little nicer!

Pondering my next wish.

For Phil

When I look at this photo I see many things.  The love, first and foremost, your eyes (how you said we touched each others soul through tunnel vision) and your good nature, you tolerated many an annoyance from me.  I miss you desperately.  I find myself wanting to tell you what is going on in my life, it makes me feel disconnected.  Yet, I continue to write you.....just like when you were away at boot camp - everyday.  

My best friend......

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