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Missing Phil... 365 days of images is getting me through the difficult days. The driving force is love. I obviously was crazy about Phil. He was one hell of a person and we had great love for one another. Love, passion and emotion are driving me through this. Today my heart hurt from missing him. There is an emptiness that resides there, a space that once was occupied by him, feels empty. I am learning to fill that space, but it seems to be a process, a hard, long process. I want to heal, I want to feel better but if I could say what I really want....
I want Phil back. I know impossible - but each day I will get up and I will forge forward to continue to find beauty.
Today I got asked to show a death certificate - thus the angst.
The marine layer hung heavy this morning. That always brings on the search for color. I went straight to the Pacific Grove coastline looking for flowers.
Peace comes to me as I search for images. I find myself noticing everything around me. I replace the sadness I feel with beauty. The ocean air, the colors around me and the sound of the waves are healing and offer distraction. 365 days seems like a long time, I know love will carry me the distance.
I spotted a sea otter, pup and a seagull who was hoping for a piece of crab.
I believe the bird below is a kingfisher.
The oystercatchers were fighting for territory.
The best surprise of the day - baby geese!
I ran out again in the afternoon to check the harbor seal rookery - A fishing boat with its net out.
I did see one harbor seal mom and pup kissing. I will try, try again for some better pup photos.
I also ran out for a brief second to catch the sunset!
For Phil
Damn it to hell I miss you!!!!!!
I wish I could tell you about what I'm doing.
365 days of images for you, honey.....
For Me:
You are doing a good job.
Don't be hard on yourself.
It is okay to feel.
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