365 days of images - - Day 360- Dec 28, 2021 - Linda's Intuitive Images LMH -- The Barnyard in Carmel

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Lili Von Shtupp : "A wed wose. How womantic."

One of Phil's favorites - Madeline Kahn  😊

This morning when I left home I asked Phil where he would want to go.

I instantly headed toward the Barnyard in Carmel.  An outdoor mall, with gardens and Phil's favorite bakery, .  I anticipated feeling emotional and I did!  It wasn't sadness though, it was love and comfort.  Before Phil was diagnosed with cancer, we would go to have lunch or dinner and drinks in one of the restaurants.  The bakery was a stop every time we went to Carmel or headed south on Hwy 1, Phil loved the bread, the sandwiches and of course, the coffee.  After Phil was diagnosed and he was going through treatments we went there to walk.  The gardens are beautiful, the walk was a little challenging with stairs for Phil.  The flowers were the highlight for me, I would take images as we walked....

Today, I enjoyed it for Phil.  I didn't stop in Lafayette Bakery this morning but it will give me an excuse to go back.  

Wonderful place to sit and watch the world go by.

Very close to the Barnyard, a couple of our favorite thrift shops, the SPCA Benefit shop and The Yellow Brick Road.  Phil loved to shop and could spot a bargain when he walked into the door.  I miss my shopping partner.  He picked out clothes for both of us, items for the house and could coerce me into enjoying the act of shopping.  

The folks at Big Sur Canna Botanicals were helpful and kind when helping with finding the right CBD oils for Phil.  The oils helped with anxiety, pain and the nausea that came with chemo. 

Flowers....even in the winter!  Everything is wet from all the rain we have been having.

For Phil

Only 5 more days of 365 days of images.  Wow!

All I'm feeling today is the love you left me with.  I'm proud of myself and I know you would have been pleased with me.  

I miss you more than words could every express.

I MISS YOU

365 days of images - - Day 133 - May 12, 2021 - Linda's Intuitive Images LMH -- A Walk Down Memory Lane - Carmel

 

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Carmel always takes me down memory lane.  Some of Phil's and my best times were spent there.  I walked the streets early in the morning before everyone showed up.  This was a party place for us, romance, fun, music and Clint Eastwood.  Ha!  I guess after 23 years together we made lots and lots of memories.  I'm surrounded with them, he continues to be with me.

Messages and reminders lead to all kinds of memories.  We had fun, oh did we ever have fun.

Love was spelled out to me everywhere.

Philly, I'm figuring it out!  But damn I miss you.

I meandered through favorite restaurants, smiled as I passed favorite bars and remember walking arm in arm down the streets.

Phil loved a cup of coffee.

He knew I loved Bill Murray, he would bring home Bill Murray stickers, post cards and stories.  I loved seeing Bill's likeness all around town.

I could feel Phil's spirit as I stood in front of the Fire Dept.  He and I have stood there together many times.

A stop in at Nielson's before we went to the beach, a bottle of wine, picnic lunch and of course a bit of desert. 

A favorite gallery.

and I turn the corner and one of Phil's favorite actors and movies.  It was like he surrounded me all day.  The memories are becoming like blankets and they are keeping me comforted.

Clint....Phil adored him.  I would say that seeing Clint in Mission Ranch was a thrill of a lifetime for Phil.  It makes me smile just thinking of it.  So many glorious memories there. Like I said there was more fun than we should have ever had in Carmel.  It seemed like we always got carried away.....

I'm lost but I'm hopeful.

It is comforting to go to the places where I can still feel him. It seems odd that everything seems the same but he is missing.

Many conflicting emotions.

The waves of grief still hit me, I'm positive that they always will.

I'm finding new ways to live, adapt and move forward.

Memories are soothing.

Flowers - we both enjoyed them so very much toward the end of your life.  I look at them with the imagination and wonder of my younger self.  What we went through made me look at everything through different eyes.  I am me and yet not me.  I hope that I'm a better me.

For Phil

Love of my Life

Dream come True

Best friend

I miss your handsome face

your kisses and the best hugs in the world.

My daughter Noelle has been putting videos together of my images - Please check it out.