365 days of images - - Day 90- March 30, 2021 - Linda's Intuitive Images LMH -- Waves, Feelings and Carmel

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I woke with a panic attack this morning.  My heart racing, feeling agitated and my energy all over the place.  I hoped when I walked I would start feeling better.  I had thoughts of losses that I had experienced.  I have been pushing myself in many ways, only to realize I make my self just plain tired.  Healing is hard, it feels like yesterday and a million years ago that Phil died.  I know I have to be patient, but sometimes it is so very hard.

I headed to Carmel, the moon was setting, the view was pretty and it was brisk outside.

As I walked I continued to feel a build up of feeling panicked and I started to cry.  I walked and cried and still took images.  Ha!  I texted friends, it helped.  Grounded myself. 

The waves are like medicine to me.

Feeling tired and distraught after crying I decided to head home, even thought I had not walked as far as I usually do.  I made a right to avoid traffic and ended up in a neighborhood trying to turn around.  I spotted a coastal access sign and decided to check it out.  I found trails around Ribera beach, it was beautiful and it helped the morale.

Spotted a rabbit and it sat still long enough to take a picture.  Wildflowers are coming up everywhere.  Spring is coming.  I could feel the panic attack subsiding, I was feeling calmer.  I know my body holds the stress, the sadness and needed a release.  The past 5 years have been intense, I'm sure I have many forms of releasing to do.  Thank goodness for my family and friends, support right now has been essential and helpful.  I'm very grateful.

A very nice nap, I felt better when I woke up this time.  I had a walk date with a friend in Palo Corona park in Carmel Valley.  Relaxing, nice to talk to a friend.

Make a wish!

For Phil:

I wear your sweatshirt sometimes because I miss you.