Surrounded by emotions right now. Tender times, trying to be gentle on myself. I checked on the nesting birds on the jetty, the cormorants were sleeping and so was the gull. No gull chick yet....
We have been busy, tourism is upon us. I have noticed a big increase in litter. - Boo!
A cute sea otter, low tide, sea stars and purple urchins.
and boats.
Lessons being learned.
Passed by the Museum.
Hundreds of crabs near the jetty, scurrying everywhere as I walked up.
To Phil
When I got up this morning and looked on Facebook, there was a photo of flowers that you had given me 8 years ago. It took my breath away, it was like getting the flowers again.
I sure have taken on a huge challenge for myself. I feel like that is exactly what my spirt needs. In fact I think the free spirit that I used to be, is what I'm trying to get back. After hearing that Phil had cancer, being a caregiver and losing Phil, I have lost some of who I was. While I'm walking, looking for the next image - I keep learning more about myself and trying to find my old self.
I imagine that the healing process is at work . In my mind's eye I can see myself before Phil was diagnosed, the feeling of safety, fun and freedom that existed within me. I believe what I continue to receive as I walk is the messages I need from inside myself. As if a fog is lifting and I get to see a little of me at a time. Nature is healing me, helping me grow and I hope I am gaining a tiny bit of my free spirit back each day that I'm out there. Surely in 365 days I can gain a large part of myself back.
I headed straight toward the jetty and Fisherman's wharf, looking for wildlife.
The sunrise was quick and orange.
Signs of Spring - Poppies!
Birds!
I spent a few minutes watching two sea otters eating beside Wharf 2.
It was the sea lions that reminded me to look at the free spirit aspect of myself. Each one seemed to have their own personality and spirit. I long to feel like myself.... I guess patience and healing is necessary. My animal friends are teaching me about myself.
