This year has been a roller coaster of ups and downs. Beautiful memories, friends and time spent together. December rolled in with appointments for a MRI, blood work and 2 doctor appointments. We found out the MRI results right before Christmas and took some time to digest the news. We will say that it could be better news, we feel confident that we are being given good medical advice and we will proceed with as much hope, love and laughter as we can. The spot they caught on the previous MRI had grown slightly and there is another new spot. The news is always shaking and brings you back to a reality that is difficult at best. Brain cancer has been a part of our life for 3 years and it has brought the greatest sadness and happiness I have every felt. We are now being sent to UCSF to be evaluated and to see how to proceed with treatment if it is needed. The spots are very small and we are told they have some specialized equipment and doctors that will be able to help to monitor the spots. The doctors seem positive and optimistic and we are trying to proceed with courage and love. We will be with some of the best doctors in the country for brain cancer and we have hope.
Needless to say, there were some up and down with our emotions. We both are grateful and I feel like the luckiest woman to get to spend this very precious time with Phil. He has been having some difficulty with emotions through the holidays. We both try to be conscious to talk about our grief, our fears and to cry. There is always an attempt to keep things as positive as we can but sometimes you just need to cry. We had a wonderful Christmas with Noelle, it was lovely and there is no way to say with words the appreciation for each moment together.
Right now we are dog sitting and are very fortunate to be staying in a house that allows us to walk to the ocean and catch the most stunning views. The animals provide us with love and comfort.
The job allows us to live....It is the perfect trade off.
There is nothing better than being happy with your job.
Very grateful and appreciative in many ways.
Needless to say, there were some up and down with our emotions. We both are grateful and I feel like the luckiest woman to get to spend this very precious time with Phil. He has been having some difficulty with emotions through the holidays. We both try to be conscious to talk about our grief, our fears and to cry. There is always an attempt to keep things as positive as we can but sometimes you just need to cry. We had a wonderful Christmas with Noelle, it was lovely and there is no way to say with words the appreciation for each moment together.
Right now we are dog sitting and are very fortunate to be staying in a house that allows us to walk to the ocean and catch the most stunning views. The animals provide us with love and comfort.
The job allows us to live....It is the perfect trade off.
There is nothing better than being happy with your job.
Very grateful and appreciative in many ways.
We continue walking and enjoying the beauty of nature around us. While on our walks, we talk about everything, things I never imagined us talking about. While walking, Phil expressed a "dream" and I am going to try to make his dream trip possible. Please take a look at my images on canvas, cards and bags. I've had a great time making a line of cards from the photographs of our walks. There is also some fun blankets that I made with patterns from my images. Maybe there is something that would make you or someone you love happy. All monies made from sales will all go to a fund to take the adventure. He has expressed the dream of doing a cross country train trip. We also want to try to visit as many family and friends that we can on this trip. Shooting for a February trip, it will be my birthday and we have a month that we aren't very busy with dog sitting. I know that we will be seeing the doctors in January again, but am hoping that we will get the opportunity to travel for a couple of weeks before we have to go into treatment. He has been feeling great and we feel that this is a great time to take an adventure. Please check out my Etsy for my images on bags, cards and prints.
All purchases will be appreciated and will help us have this dream trip. There are no words to tell you what it will mean to both of us to be able to do this.
(We already have a small fund going)
We will continue to walk, heal and love. To 2019 and the life journey that is before us.
To each of you I wish peace, love and laughter in your life.
Without laughter I don't know where I would be.......
As we go through our journey, we have some days that are difficult to get through.
I always tell Phil, tomorrow will be a better day. This month we have said that to each other many times. It makes us laugh each time, my dream is that we have years of laughter together.
Tomorrow will be a better day.....
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