At home in Bed

 

I had put off my covid vaccine because I have had adverse reactions to previous vaccines.  The last flu vaccine that I had I got the flu that went into to pneumonia and I was sick for 6 weeks.  I have kept my self secluded, masked and away from everyone.  Phil was very ill during the beginning of the pandemic, so we were all very secluded.  My daughter also has had a rocky road with vaccines, when she was vaccinated as a child she suffered a seizure and spent a few days in the hospital in a condition that was frightening.  The doctors were very careful with vaccines since then.  I am not anti vax but I was fearful for both of us.

Noelle had to vaccinate for work.  I recently lost my father and didn't feel I could travel because I had not been vaccinated.  I decided to go with Noelle to take care of the deed.  On Wed, we both went in and had our second vaccine.  Noelle did pretty good the first couple of days, then she slipped into a couple of not so great days, today she reported to work even though she is still weak.   She is ok, but is coming home from work early.   I on the other hand have been in bed since Thursday, fever, and some of the worst muscle aches and joint pain I have ever experienced.  I have talked to the doctor, they say to be patient and allow my body to take care of itself.  I don't lay down well, this has been like torture.  There isn't much I can do about it though, my 365 days have been put on hold, which has made me more than sad.  I will resume where I left off as soon as I'm feeling better.  Not only that, no more worrying, it is done!

I would also like to say that the way people treated me when I told them that I didn't want to vaccine because I was scared what it would do to me varied. Some acted with caring, understanding and some with prejudice and fear.   I have not seen friends, keep a mask on at all time, don't go anywhere where there are people.  365 days of images was what was keeping me going, I look forward to getting back to it.  I am getting weaker, so I know I'm going to have to rebuild my strength.  As soon as I feel better I look forward to getting back to life, visiting my relatives.  I will keep my mask on, but I so want to live life again.

I have been in a strange suspension of life every since Phil was diagnosed with cancer in 2016, my hopes of travel, friends and family have been just a dream, except my daughter Noelle and a couple of my good friends who wear masks around me.  I crave life.....and I want to feel better.

Love to all, I hope to be back to myself very soon.  

Phil I miss you so very much

Noelle I love and thank you

Family I hope to see you soon.

I sure could use some hugs right now.

Back to bed.